In Progress..!!

Couple of years ago, I started writing a "Novel"... I had just began writing as an expression of my thoughts. This novel was a story that couple of us friends discussed about few years prior with manga as a base. The story was indian but the type of storytelling would be mangaish. So one fine day I put the pen to paper, or rather fingers on the keyboard.

I finished about 3 chapters or 30 - 40 pages worth in a week. I was motivated as hell and water to create something that I would be happy reading! Now, years later, it's still at the same point. What happened you'd think! Well, the story was about mythology and friendship and working together to overcome adversities. Your regular manga style. I still have the storyboard in my head. But I couldn't put it out as a story after the point I had to write about friends and group dynamics. 

I pondered a lot about it but never could find relatable material. In the end it boiled down to my own inability to be a good friend. It's not like I haven't tried, but I couldn't ever see myself as being a good friend to anyone. The more I tried the more I fucked up, one way or the other. But I also know a few times when I was honest with my intentions and it fired back. This I think manifested in me not being able to write about a friend group and how the dynamics would work. Because for me writing fake characters is one thing but taking their emotions is another. All my write-ups, though not being refined or superbly written, have one thing that I take pride in, that they are honest in the emotions that they convey and I would not want it anyway other than that.

Back then I was adamant to make it work like how I imagined. Now I think, maybe I'll need to rethink the entire approach. I was too stubborn back then. To change that thought process was very difficult. The novel is stuck. Because of my handicap. Will it forever be the same? I'm not sure. Will I try to approach it in a different way? Why not, maybe soon.